It's always haunting not to live selfish. To be honest I have always had a second thought when trying to extend my hand. So this contradiction is what defines my life. On the top it's always about being successful and happy first and then reaching out to others??

A week more and I will be back in Denton. The recovery after LASIK is not easy and coping up with the reality isn't easy either.  As my favorite bhogle says  I should practice to remember the good and forget the bad.

Give me one reason why I should never make a change...

Am I a 'matured innocent' as uvraaj says.May be am being a dumb idiot sometimes...

Dramatically cried with deekshith for being lost in my own room. I am not sure why but the inner devil felt relieved..May be there should always be some conflict to live here

Freemasonry ? Looking forward to join the secret service.
                      Let me count the number of new people that I meet in the whole week. I have to change this stagnant life. You live only once and I want to live grand

Two more exams to go and my stay on probation will be out in less than ten. Now at Bruce serving cutting cleaning and washing. I so wish this ends now

With two weeks to go for the semester and 2weeks over 2 months for INDIA, everything is unfolding slowly now. Meeting kind hearted steven, john again, being a victim of fishing (BABYSITTING JOB), Discussion with Prathyush at motel and over whisky about life all serve good incidents of this phase. I could have landed in no great trouble than getting trapped in a fraud.

     With a 'yes' and then 'no' I was denying myself and irritating parents about my visit. Finally, now am happy-happy-happy,

You are limited by the things you know.
I felt I was touring the whole America when I went to an island called south padre...I thought of the resul t even before giving the driving test..I.know I am anxious about the future when I am trying to register for the summer courses desperately
                          But what I didn't know was back home father is worried about the cbi and family wants me not to book the flight ticket. Now that brings me back to my senses and think about how hard a life can be for him
       

I Can't take the probation label anymore. I had enough of it now. I realised its bothering me when I tried to get a frnd who was only trying to make a joke. I was till then cosidering me mentally hillarious (Crazy) , but just after the scene, I am now trying not to act mentally ill.

so 'wasted' , going with it and that is all i ever wanted- having fun. In between the idea of stripping and doing it to the extent of being naked without a hint of shame. I cannot fathom the idea now

when a metal is introduced to acid, it eats away the metal leaving a roughened area. Little did I know that this was the process done when my grandmother traded old steel vessels for god statues. All the explanations to the artist and the choice of gods that she wants - just like a malgudi story that happened in my childood