Every aspect of the day was a different experience. The then introvert getting validated before people , who had  nothing to do but people watching, while I was carrying a lota to defecate into the woods.
      All those flowers intricately embellished. The higher the bathukamma, the bigger was the family in status. And everybody seemed to happily accept the fact. 
     My favorite part was though to get draped in new clothes , get a dummy gun and get lost in the nature and noise.
   బెబ్బరు ముద్దా :(, how hardly am I longing for you. Should get to making it.


Master of none

       so whats your technology ?

       Me: Am a pro Googler.
Tripped. All the idiosyncrasies of  my thought busted, I land in the same pit I constantly blabber about. Its just that I like it now ? My previous stance now seems rather farcical. It at least feels lot less far fetched of an expectation to discover the one.

The sameness and dullness of everyday as James Baldwin once wrote the real trouble with living is living is so banal.

 There was a time when I used to dream this story would happen-  I see an old guy, rescue him on the road and as a reward, I get a year long free coupons to eat for free at his restaurant. Exactly what happened at Jacksonville. I meet some people who run a restaurant, they feed me all day with delicious food, a shelter to live in and a home theater to fill the timeline.
let me start with a reflection - After all the aspirations to be a voracious reader, vagabond, travel, business and farming, I realized life is like a blank paper, it shows what you write on it. There is something about coding. It logical than anything that you do in life. It takes no bias, returns no value just because you have initialized it with an opinion. Its an input output, precisely for the condition that you put in, no less no more.
    The key is to keep busy to avoid getting lost in the void ? Is that why we all work ?  Money might be the biggest motivation and there is something beyond that which I can't comprehend for now. 


which way ?

Last time I blogged and had a reflective on my journey, never did I think I would be visiting many places and my life would change a bit.

           Toured places, told a girl that I loved her and bought a car. I am starting to love this uncertainity in my life and sorting out the possibilities. The best lessons that I learnt are you direct yourself, there is only one way - don't belittle yourself, learn more, take a step.Sitting there doesn't get you anything.

          One downside in my travel here, am feeling a genuine hatred towards following other people's lives. Is a confusion to show compassion or not go any extent, any least bit that could hurt you.

         All said, its your life - IT SHOULD BE ABUNDANT, before you could share anything with others. Abundance in the sense of self satisfaction and very little emotions that I have. Its very difficult to be less consumeristic and materialistic in this life. But am trying, trying hard to grow more and back up myself.

  I will have to maintain talking to myself more here, after all this is the only place where am talking to the real me devoid of all the influences from exterior.
Its time that I realize what I'm becoming. It can be only easy to not care when you reflect more. Hone your skills before there is an urge to achieve something.

There is literally nothing inhibiting my progress except me staying still and getting lost in the daily crap. No more counting dollars , go count the stars and get lost in your own thoughts. Ofcourse, all the things that you dream of are only some attributes of a good life. No point when you don't live a life at all.

Place: In Edison, after the first job.

Time: Not long before I blog again from a different city in a new job hopefully.

Not long before I realize programming is not my forte and I will have to stay calm when shit gets

real. There is always a need.  Once you reach that core , you are with greed for more.

Being too good to people should not be your only choice beacause there are people never too old

enough for their age.

New roommates- Basically India Wale.

Hanging out with uncles beach_walks, bowling and cineema.

After neponset landing which was like hilariously close and okay ..this Nepalese shelter is now a breeding place for my thoughts on how this life goes on. The food and VERY WISE Roman aur dilli reminding me of my Mulk- (native)
        The UBER costly LYFT is one good example and realisation of how easily I could be cajoled into doing things- tipped him 40$. I should not but I don't know why I keep thinking of that- Might be its the stingy person in me dominating the other generous side.

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